Emerson Moore

i wanted to blog about this as soon as i got hame yesterday but didnt have a chance! but anywho let me paint the picture..

i know i am known for “accidentally” leaving my wallet when i attend events that call for exchange of money, and i admit there have been times when i do, but i have honestly been working on it and thought i almost had it conquered. until yesterday… i seriously left my wallet in my truck yesterday morning when i went to work. honest mistake, i really didnt mean to, because ive been through the whole thing with wayne and him paying for my lunch and it wasnt pretty,

now, before i continue… i learned literally the night before that i have to quit worrying about the small things and look at the bigger picture that is ‘God’. that when i take my eye off of the ‘whole’ picture and begin to look at the small, miniscule things then i cant be what i am supposed to be because im not avaliable to be used by Him for the benefit of others for his kingdom, because im preoccupied with what im doing. with that said i also believe that we can miss opportunities of God moving in our own lives of because we are taking matters into our own hands… (now back to the story)

i realize that i dont have my wallet when we get to the job, because i always take it out and put it in the truck so i dont get pick-pocketted while on the work trail. (j/k) but anywho, the whole morning im going through the schpiele (sp) in my head for when we go to lunch of how i either: #1- ate a big breakfast with my grandpa, and im not that hungry, (knowing good and well i was starving) #2- i thought we would be done before lunch, so i didnt even bring money for lunch, so i just wont eat, or my least fav option #3- i forgot my wallet, do u mind picking up the ticket and just take it out of my check for this week? this is honestly what is going through my head. well we get to lunchtime-ish, and i think im going to get out of it, because we are done. what i forgot to tell you is that we were working at none other than Dwight Durbin’s house, and what does he do? invite us to lunch… dot dot dot… CRAP!

needless to say we went to Larry’s Sub’s, but we are in line, and not having to give an explanation yet, i sorta stand back and try to just sit down and not order. well dwight told me to cut him cause he’s “got it”, my heart just sank. i was like thank you God!!! i was so blessed, but at the same time i was like, “blake you suck!!! something so tiny and small as eating lunch God still showed me He is in control of my life. i was blown away!!

i heard something the other day and i wrote it down, but usually when and if i write stuff down i rarely ever see it again, but this stuck out to me.. maybe because it confused me or intrigued me? i dont know but i cant get it off of my mind…

“Are you going to make God “Lord” of your life, or are you going to keep Him your “Savior”?

at first i couldnt figure out where he was going with it and i still dont, but this though has been brewing in me for a few days and it seems like everything i do has been pointing towards it too.. i have always struggled with the thought that God wants to use me even though i am complete screw up, but that is always in my own power. this quote tells me that i have to let God have control over my life and not let him just be the one who keeps me from a bad ending.

i looked up the definition for Lord and Savior.

“Lord” had to do with master or owner, or keeper or governor
“Savior” rescuer or deliver, or preserver or protector

i think so many times we think that once we are saved we are done and its just a matter of waiting for Christ to come back. if you look at the bible, the majority of it is instruction for here and now not for later. we actually know very little about “later”. God has shown me through this that i cant worry about what is to come, but i also cant worry about what i have done in the past, because both are distrations of the here and now, which is what i am called by Christ to be concerned with. i have to get over what i have done in the past and let God use me to be his hands and feet. God wants to use us, but so many times we are more concerned with what we have done than God even is. i know for me that sometimes i am so worried about feeling inadequate that i miss out on what He is doing around me and miss out on opportunities to be used. He has forgiven us, so when he rose form the freakin dead he was done worrying about our past. even today God has shown me that. i was listening to a song and it said that…

‘im not living for the past or the memories, theres’ no use in looking back, when there is nothing there to see’

the only thing i have to worry about is being aware of where God is and to run there and love with everthing that i am, cause if im where God then im in the right placeand if im in the right place then he is obviously in the right place…

well i just got done studying again for yet another final, but i recieved an email from my professor about insanity and how everybody uses the word competely wrong… when you say that someone is insane you are actually not even close to what they actually are. insanity is actually a term used in the judicial system and is a “court” term if you will.. knowing that she sent the email with the title of..

HOW TO MAINTAIN A HEALTHY LEVEL OF INSANITY

1.) at lunch time, sit in your parked car with sunglasses on and and point a hair dryer at passing cars.
(see if anyone slows down)
2.) page yourself over the intercom. (dont diguise your voice)
3.) everytime someone askes you to do something, ask if they want fries with that.
4.) put decaf in the coffee maker for 3 weeks – once everyone has gotten over their caffeine addictions,
switch to espresso.
5.) in the memo field of all your checks, write ‘For Marijuana’.
6.) skip down the hall instead of walk and see how many looks you get.
7.) order diet water whenever you go out to eat, with a serious face.
8.) specify that your drive-through order is ‘To Go’
(THAT WAS MY FAV)
9.) Sing along at the opera
10.) five days in advance, tell your friends you cant come to their party because you have a headache.
11.) when the money comes out of the ATM, scream ‘I Won! I Won!’
12.) when leaving the zoo, start running towards the parking lot, yelling, ‘Run for you lives! There loose!’

And Finally the best fit for where we find ourselves today…

13.) TELL YOUR CHILDREN OVER DINNER, ‘DUE TO THE ECONOMY, WE ARE GOING TO HAVE TO LET ONE OF
YOU GO…

i thought those were pretty good, let me know which one is you FAV…

i have a freakin huge final today in none other history, civilization 1 to be exact, but for some reason i cant make myself study more… so i just started asking God to give me peace about it and while sitting at my computer two things happened..

my brother texted me and told me he was praying for me that i would do good, and coming from him that meant alot, but…
i also just started looking at some pics and found some peaceful photos and i just imagined being there with god and we were working an my test together.. call it a stretch but i might try it!
anywho here are some of the ones that i ran across…

i dont know but for me that just allowed me to relax and spend some time that i desparately needed with god…